Thursday, October 14, 2010

ouch! watch what you say to me!!

dear emily,

i approached target, and a wave of grief washed over me.  as i began
sinking under it,  i heard myself say,

"silly woman, what in the world is wrong with you?"

"well, i always come to target with the girls, and i just miss them so
much!"

"uh huh, and do you remember why you are here?"  i can be so
demanding.

"just picking up some things to take to hailey."  i muttered.

"i'm sorry, what did you say?"

"picking up some things to take to hailey, sir!"


"exactly.  you should be rejoicing.  now stop feeling sorry for yourself."

gulp.

so i feasted on one of target's delicious all beef hot dogs, barely able to
finish it and remembered wishing i could have another just six weeks
ago.  another reason to rejoice.  :)

it made me think about how important it is to encourage my self-talk
every now and then.  "there is a time to weep but also a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance." (ecclesiastes 3:4)  my emotions
get so mixed up that i have to speak to them, too.

yikes!  i'm starting to sound schizophrenic.

i'm going to take a blog break, but it would thrill hailey, who blogs
about her brazilian experiences, if you hopped over there to say,
"hello! or ciao!" in portuguese.   well, really it would just thrill me.

ciao,
lea

49 comments:

Vee said...

Enjoy your break from blogging, Lea. Blogging breaks can be such times of refreshing. Course, I'm wondering if you're heading off to Colorado or perhaps Brazil...

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

Enjoy your blog break! Totally blessings...I had to nod my head reading...God was speaking to me yesterday on my self-talk, on some bad habits of thoughts I have allowed and Him wanting to wash them away.

Have a refreshing, awesome time!

I will be checking your daughter's blog...been praying for her. My daughter is looking into heading to Africa...my second one to go there.

Ruth said...

Hi Lea, thanks for stopping by and leaving sweet comment at Underneath His Wrapping...

you have such interesting blog... i look forward to reading more. in the mean time, enjoy your break!!

Following you...:))and Nice to meet you!!

Ruth

High Heeled Life said...

My dear friend enjoy your break ... I didn't think that would need one.. but sometimes we just need to re-energize!! So that we can better help and support others. I'm on a writing little break as you know.

Enjoy your break .. and you know we will be here when you are ready to write!! XO ... blessings HHL

Of course it would be my pleasure to visit Hailey .. I was not aware she was blogging!!! XO

Deborah Ann said...

Have a nice sweet break, but don't be gone too long!

Girl Meets Paris said...

Hopping over to Brazil... and I'll tell my daughter about it!!!

Sandy said...

I hope you enjoy your blogging
break and come back refreshed
and ready to impart more of
your wisdom and a good dose
of humor.
Blessings,Sandy
Thanks again for your prayers
for my darling.

Mildred said...

Enjoy your break Lea. May God bless.

BonjourRomance said...

Bonjour Lea,
Great post, we do need to do that sometimes. Enjoy your littel breadk, but stay away too long, I will miss you!
See you soon!
Mimi

Debbie said...

You're not alone! I talk to myself too. Enjoy your blog break ...

We'll be here when you return.

Sonja said...

oh have I ever done that! Been sad about missing someone so much and I was probably on the plane on my way to see them!

I'm so glad you are going to see Hailey... and don't do what I would do... sit on the plane and think about how long the flight is!! :)

You will be missed... don't forget your way back!

Hugs!

Rita said...

Dear Lea,
although I so much enjoy visiting your blog and reading you inspiring words do enjoy you blog break.
As soon as i finished reading your post I headed off to Hsiley' blog and that put a big smile on my face.
her casa look delightful and she sounds so special.
sending coutless blessings your way hope to have you back to blogging soon. blog hopping won't be the same without your sweet, inspiring and encouraging words.
lotsa love
rita

Farm Girl said...

Hang in there and take a break, rest, sleep, cry, read, do what ever it is that makes you rest. Even Jesus, had to get away to be alone with His Father. I got up this morning first thing and made my porch that is just off my office all nice so I could go and meet my Father as the sun comes up. It helped me so much in my mind.

We will love you when you get back and we love you now.

Still always,you are
Lovely Lea :)
just a given out one.

Linda said...

You're leaving already? I just found you! Oh well, come back when you are ready!

Rebecca said...

I'm on my way for a visit!

You make me cry...and then SMILE BIG!

I love your heart. Enjoy your break. Mine was WONDERFUL!

xoRebecca

myletterstoemily said...

so many of you actually visited hailey,
and i am soooooo grateful!

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

I sent her link to my daughter...they sound soooooooooooo much alike...mine is 19. I don't know what I will do if God calls her elsewhere, or what her little brother will do, but it is the word I have had on her life since she was young...so I guess I need to prepare my heart. Mine sings at the top of her lungs...she leads praise and worship for the jr high..so I can see her singing like your daughter was mentioning.
Have an awesome trip...my lady, you are the blessing! Enjoy!!! My prayers go with you!!!!

Grandma Yellow Hair said...

Honey I hope you enjoy your break. I know how much you are missing the girls and I am so sorry.
Looking forward to your return
Love
Maggie

Jenny said...

Wait, Wait! Come back! Target has hotdogs?????!!!! What???? I am so robbed. Target here does not.

Sad.

OK.

Bye.

Oh wait.

I want to say, have a good break. Hope it helps!

But all beef hot dogs? Seriously?

Single and Sane said...

Enjoy your time away from the blogosphere!

A Tale of Two Cities said...

Hope you find your break-away to be refreshing. As for lamenting over shopping at Target alone, is there a Wal-Mart near-by that could meet your needs for awhile??? You know sometimes a change of scenery does wonders for the soul!

Debi

Bree said...

Praying, praying, praying! He is good, full of mercy and grace and a whole lot of love! Bless you, looking forward to hearing :)
Hugs!
Bree

His Song To Sing said...

Blessings on you, yours and your blogging break ... you will be missed!

myletterstoemily said...

i'm a little undone by the precious
response of my friends to visit
hailey. you guys are awesome, and
i am sooooooo thankful!

Dianne said...

Have a wonderful time during your break, Lea. And we will look forward to your return.

Joan Elizabeth said...

Aww you must be sooo excited. Have a great trip.

Anne Lyken-Garner said...

Have a great blog break. I think we do need them sometimes. You'll have lots of inspired posts when you get back.

koralee said...

I always talk to myself...my kids at school think I am crazy!!!

Anyways..enjoy your blog break my friend. xoxoxo

Rebecca said...

I'll miss you, Lea! Listen to yourself talk...more importantly, hear Him. "Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord...I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life...then you will know that I am the Lord." (Ezekiel 37:4ff)

Gloria said...

Enjoy your break. Hope to see you back here soon! Saying a prayer for you and Hailey for strength and encouragement right now! :)

I hope your weekend is a relaxing one!
blessings to you,
xoxo Gloria

p.s. I got a kick out of reading your last post about the car wash! I never have liked driving my car through a car wash!! :)

Personalized Sketches and Sentiments said...

Oh! I do understand! I wish that we didnt live this 12 hour drive away from our younger two in Kentucky and then the additional 2 hours more to our older daughter and her hubby!

I am sooooo ready to move! I look forward to when we can be "down the road" (and not 12 hours!) or at least in the same state....so we can meet for lunch or have them over for dinner and just to visit! This Thanksgiving and Christmas, my work schedule is packed, and our older daughter and our son in law also have work schedules that do not have much time off, so not sure how that will work. OOps! sorry for all that! I just meant to say...I understand :o)

I will take a peek at your daughter's blog.

Blessings & Aloha!
After returning from our visit with family, it was straight to work, but I had yesterday and today off from work, so I hope to get caught up on some blog reading. I did draw names and I just wanted to let you know-in appreciation to those that left comments but were not drawn, I am also offering 10% off of one order…I would have liked to do more free or 20% off, but especially with it this close to Christmas, I could not manage to get them done in time..but want to be sure that no one was left out. Please leave a comment to let me know if you are interested.

patricia said...

i heard a preacher once say "preach to yourself". talk God's Word to self as though your sitting in church hearing it from a preacher. Just keep preaching to yourself sister and you'll be rejoicin' way more than despairin'. dem' folks in target might be thinkin' you is looney but that's just fine now; it is....

Susan B said...

Have an enjoyable blog break Lea! I'll miss you while you are gone...take care. :)

My name is PJ. said...

Enjoy your break, Lea! And, if you're away for the fourth quarter, have a blessed holiday season. I'll miss you.

Jo said...

Don't stay away too long, Lea. I will miss you too much. But do enjoy your break. :-)

Sandra said...

Blog because you want to not because you impose it upon yourself. Life is full of "have to's", blogging isn't one of them unless you're needing it to make money.
smile.

Rosie said...

Dearest Lea,
Oh you must be SOOOOO EXCITED! I know how I miss MY babies, and when I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, I am such a child at heart...counting sleeps before I see them. Have the very BEST Thanksgiving sweet friend and know that you will be missed!
I have a "wee" little something that I would love to send you. Is there a mailing address that I might use to get it to you?
If you could maybe Email me this, I could have a little welcome home goody waiting for you...:)
rosesandrutabagas@gmail.com
...Smilin' BIG Rosie...xoxo

Rita said...

Thanks for that little reminder - I especially need it to remember to keep my thoughts focused on my blessings.

Enjoy your little break. Thanks for leaving a note on my last post. R

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Thanks for checking in with me...

Blessings and peace to you as you break away and find some rest.

peace~elaine

Beth Priest said...

Hey stranger! Sorry just blogged again for the first time in AGES! but I saw you commented on my last post in august something about your daughters music video...I would love to know what you need help with if you still do....sorry that I just saw it! Hope you are doing fabulously!

Andrea - Faded Plains said...

I love how yu wite...it's like your taking to me...I hope you enjoy your break.

Deborah Ann said...

Okay. Time's up. Come back now.

GOTTCHA!

Patrina's Pencil said...

Are you back yet?
I just came over her to thank you for your visits on the bridge - I just want to say you deserve a break today so stay as long as you need. I know that sadness - I pray it's been good for you.

See you when you return

hugs,
patrina <")>><
warrior bride in boots

Sixty-Fifth Avenue said...

Enjoy your time away, see you when you get back:)
Londen
xo

Together We Save said...

Enjoy your break, I will miss you!!

Gwendolyn said...

Lea, I'm regretting not getting back to your blog before now. I talk to myself too...like the Psalmist did (Ps 42:5 "Why are you cast down, oh my soul?) I so miss all my missionary kids. As moms, the separation is our sacrifice, but aren't you glad we are in it together with our kids...for His glory! I know your heart is with Hailey in Brazil. I'm hopping over to visit her blog. Enjoy your break!

Sonja said...

I'm so glad you're home!

Can't wait to hear what you have to share about it...

I Love Pretty Little Things said...

Ohhhhh, You Will Be Missed! I hope that you rest enjoy the break. Come back soon. :)
Joyce

Amanda said...

LOL! I must admit, I had to read this post a few times to work out who was saying what! Then I realised it was 'self-talk'. I do it all the time.. it's normal isn't it?!! ;-)

Enjoy your break, looking forward to your return.

God bless you xoxo